Get it Here

I'm looking for a fic that I read awhile ago.... and i wanna say that it hadnt been updated since 2006 or so when i read it about a year ago.  It was definately on LJ and I probably found it thru bjfic  bc that's where i found all my fics back when i first found the fandom.  

Anyway... this fic was a past/present time frame fic where in present time Justin had died at a fairly young age of causes unknown (as of yet) and left a diary.  Mikey was reading the diary that was based in a post-513 time.  In the "past time" Justin had married at a man that was positive and they'd adopted 1 or 2 (i cant remember) kids,  The guy had died after his HIV status quickly turned to AIDS bc he had some advanced strain of it, and Justin was back in Pittsburgh after the funeral mourning his husbands death.  I remember one of the last chapters that was posted at the time i read it had him and Brian tickling each other and wrestling on the floor, but I don't think they'd "gotten back together" when the author had stopped writting....

basically I wanna find this fic bc I'd really love to see if she/he finished writting it bc (if i remember correctly) it was really well written and really angsty (which i love) bc you know that justin is dead at like 35 years old or something... and it was soooooooooo sad bc of that!

Thanks in advance!

Update:  Evidently, I've done it again.... mixed up the plot lines of 2 different fics and mushed them together into one fic that I swear is out there.

Anyway, the fic about Justin's husband dying of aids and the kid they adopted is bdeviled 's Full Circle

The one where Justin died and left a diary behind isA Lifetime of Words by tgray.  Unfortunately that fic is still unfinished which I was sooooo hoping was not the case.