Looking for long, scrupulously & painstakingly in-character, angsty, realistic, post 5-13 fics

[queerasfray.livejournal.com]

(Confession alert!) I'm having trouble finding the "right" post-series fic. I've started several that seemed quite promising at first but then later went off the reservation character-wise. It's a bummer to start a multi-chaptered fic only to have it wander off into the tangled wilderness of OoC land. I'm not particularly a fan of fluff (especially Fluffy!Brian) or nothing but sex-sex-sex 24/7. I'm looking for something gritty and real and angsty, and the longer, the better. I want something that is going to totally engross me and satisfy my bottomless need for The Feels.

Thanks ahead of time!

ETA: Wow! Thank you all for the response! Some great suggestions in the comments!

Comments

[kellydeer.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I had read some of the replies as well & should have just stayed away, but I am such a 'long fic' whore & this is one of the longest so it was totally 'the flame to my moth' as it were...

I saw other posts from folks who loved it though, so Fray may like it too. Don't want to totally discourage anyone. Each reader should make up their own mind, but just wanted her to have another view so she could form an 'educated opinion' and maybe so she wouldn't wander into it blind.

[queerasfray.livejournal.com]

Thank you - I appreciate receiving multiple opinions on a fic. And I also like being given a heads-up if the fic might bum me out. There's angst and then there's angst (For example, the image of Brian and Justin holding each other at the very end was good old healthy angst - the decision to fade Justin out of the picture was merely cruel).

[kellydeer.livejournal.com]

I know! I felt little puddles in my eyes & my heart just sunk when they pulled that one!