Get it Here

Hi!  So basically I'm a ridiculous Brian fangirl, and re-watching the series recently it hit me how many times there are when Brian does something generous or selfless or heartbreakingly self-flagellating and nobody ever finds out.  Or at least very few people find out. 

So I'd really appreciate any stories you guys can recommend where another character finds out:

-Brian went to the hospital every night Justin was there
-Brian wore that bloody scarf around his neck for over 2 months
-Brian talked to a shrink after the bashing to try to help Justin
-Brian paid Justin's tuition even after they broke up
-Brian almost killed himself on his 30th birthday
-Why Brian pushed Michael away during his 30th birthday party
-Why Brian hit Michael in 3x01
-Any other things like that that I can't think of right now, but I know there are more.

There's one fic in particular that I remember reading, where Justin finds out a lot of things that Brian did and never told him about.  I think it took place post 5x10, I know they were at the hospital at the beginning, but I can't remember if it was after the bombing or if it was for something else post canon...anyway, Justin sees Brian talking to an orderly or physical therapist or someone that he knew from after the bashing and talks to him after Brian leaves and finds out about his post-bashing nightly vigil.  It was the beginning of a rather long chaptered fic  I believe, though I can't remember many other specifics.  Ring any bells for anyone? ( ETA: FOUND this one.  Link in comments.)

(Tags aren't working for me right now, I'll add them afterwards...hope that's ok?  I'm new.)