Angsty recs

[justsoqueer.livejournal.com]

Hi!
I know this is in no way an original request or anything, but I'm addicted to angsty fics and every few months I like to ask around for new or rediscovered fics to break my soul. A little. Or, you know, A LOT.
I can read about everything. Whichever season, happy ending, not ending up together, death!fic, kid!fic... I do have my favourites, however:

- First break up. During or after the Ethan arc. Like Mesa's fic? That's a perfect setting.
- Post 5x13 but not together.
- Brian getting older and freaking out.
- General breaking up.

Only requisite is for the fic to be rip-my heart-out-of-my-chest angsty. And not much OOC, pretty please! They can be WIP, just, not abandoned works, cause they make me so sad!

Thank you, guys!

FOUND!: There are already some links in the comments. But feel free to keep them coming my way! :))))

Comments

[rockie2010.livejournal.com]

Have you ever read Timeless (http://www.midnightwhispers.ca/viewstory.php?sid=1081&warning=3) by Cynical21?

It's a WIP and a heart breaker.

[kmboatright.livejournal.com]

My favorite angsty fic (also, my fav fanfic) is Queer Theories by gaedhal. It is AU, from about 209.
http://fortruthis.net/gaedhal/

[petulant2u.livejournal.com]

Tebrosity? Someone please help me. I can't remember the author, but I think that's the title. It's very angsty.

[ktkatastr0phe.livejournal.com]

OMG, Cali! You took the words right out of my mouth. I've been wanting to post a rec for pure angst for days now! You're so rad.

And these recs seem great, guys!

[bigdogz09.livejournal.com]

I wrote one in which the guys are broken up and then Brian finds out that Justin is missing. It's pretty angsty. It's called "A Light Shining Through The Darkness," and it's at Midnight Whispers.

Here's the link (I hope it works).

http://www.midnightwhispers.ca/viewstory.php?sid=1646&warning=3

[love4movies.livejournal.com]

The Sign by Kachelofen http://kachelofen.livejournal.com/tag/the%20sign

Stars Made of Paper by Rinmonsterer http://rinmonsterer.livejournal.com/51816.html

Valediction by q_dicted http://q-dicted.livejournal.com/tag/valediction

My Biggest Regret by dreamcatcher http://dreamcatcher.livejournal.com/3346.html

At Times, Indeed, Almost Ridiculous by windtossed http://windtossed.livejournal.com/24546.html

[ntua.livejournal.com]

I second love4movies' rec of "Valediction" by q_dicted. It is, without a doubt, the best piece of fanfic I have ever encountered in this or any fandom. Warning, though - you'll be a sniveling, sobbing mess. I'm talking he U-G-L-Y cry where you don't want to be in the same room with another person.

A really close second for me is galeandrandy's "Tenebrosity" already recc'd above. It will break your heart over and over again with every chapter.

As for something new, kiera81487 just posted an update to my (not so) secret obsession: "Unexpectations".
http://kiera81487.livejournal.com/tag/unexpectations
Justin and Brian break up. Justin rebounds and has a baby with someone else. (Don't be squicked - all mpreg happenings are offscreen.) Justin realizes his mistake, tries to get Brian back, Brian says "No way!". Brian has hot!sex / kind-of!relationship with OMC. Justin is jealous. Angst and chaos ensue. Love it!

ETA - And my go-to fics when I need my angst tempered with a little HEA:

blissink's "One Love": http://blissink.livejournal.com/tag/one%20love
and
bdeviled's "Full Circle": http://www.livejournal.com/tools/memories.bml?user=bdeviled&keyword=Full+Circle&filter=all

[sfscarlet.livejournal.com]

I'll toot my own horn here. I wrote a fic called Pain Management- B/J and broken up- lots of angst- can find it on Midnight Whispers- it is reposted on Midnight Whispers- the original got eaten when the site was hacked.

http://midnightwhispers.ca/viewstory.php?sid=126

[love4movies.livejournal.com]

Just remembered this one. Brian turns 40.

Forty by Sandra Gia

http://web.archive.org/web/20041009195223/http://sandragia.brianplusjustin.com/f_01.php

[nightvision55.livejournal.com]

I'll add a couple of my own, both break-up fics and pretty angsty! Don't know if you've read them:

Bird On A Wire
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5558633/1/BIRD_ON_A_WIRE

and The Great Divide http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6364731/1/THE_GREAT_DIVIDE