Angsty recs

[justsoqueer.livejournal.com]

Hi!
I know this is in no way an original request or anything, but I'm addicted to angsty fics and every few months I like to ask around for new or rediscovered fics to break my soul. A little. Or, you know, A LOT.
I can read about everything. Whichever season, happy ending, not ending up together, death!fic, kid!fic... I do have my favourites, however:

- First break up. During or after the Ethan arc. Like Mesa's fic? That's a perfect setting.
- Post 5x13 but not together.
- Brian getting older and freaking out.
- General breaking up.

Only requisite is for the fic to be rip-my heart-out-of-my-chest angsty. And not much OOC, pretty please! They can be WIP, just, not abandoned works, cause they make me so sad!

Thank you, guys!

FOUND!: There are already some links in the comments. But feel free to keep them coming my way! :))))

Comments

[rockie2010.livejournal.com]

Have you ever read Timeless (http://www.midnightwhispers.ca/viewstory.php?sid=1081&warning=3) by Cynical21?

It's a WIP and a heart breaker.

[justsoqueer.livejournal.com]

Oh, yes! I've read that one. It's very angsty! I think the author is planning on finishing it, right?

[rockie2010.livejournal.com]

Yes AFAIK :)

[kmboatright.livejournal.com]

My favorite angsty fic (also, my fav fanfic) is Queer Theories by gaedhal. It is AU, from about 209.
http://fortruthis.net/gaedhal/

[justsoqueer.livejournal.com]

I've read the first part only. I think there are more parts right? I couldn't find them at the time,though. Do you have any links? :)))

[yvonnereid.livejournal.com]

Hi,just popping in to leave the links you asked for :) http://fortruthis.net/gaedhal/qtri ~ Vonnie xx

[justsoqueer.livejournal.com]

Oh, there they are! hehehe
Thank so much!
:)

[petulant2u.livejournal.com]

Tebrosity? Someone please help me. I can't remember the author, but I think that's the title. It's very angsty.

[ktkatastr0phe.livejournal.com]

Are you talking about Tenebrosity by galeandrandy ? I've never read it but I think I may!

Hopefully this link works -- posting from my phone. (http://http://rhapsody-series.livejournal.com/1359.html)

[ktkatastr0phe.livejournal.com]

Crap! Didn't work. Here... http://rhapsody-series.livejournal.com/1359.html

[petulant2u.livejournal.com]

Yes, that's it! The angstyist, (made up word) lol. Story I've ever read! Love it!

[galeandrandy.livejournal.com]

LOL, I think you rec this story more than anyone I've ever seen. Thank you for that.

I'm finishing the final few paragraphs of 'credence' and then I will continue posting this story. I am sorry it's taking forever. I just got really overwhelmed with the edits and such and I felt like I probably needed to just focus on one thing at a time. But it's coming soon.

Angsty... I may have possibly given a new definition to the word with this story. I think I've read just about every fanfiction out there that isn't too OOC and I believe that Tenebrosity may be near the top of all the angsty bjfics.

[ktkatastr0phe.livejournal.com]

OMG, Cali! You took the words right out of my mouth. I've been wanting to post a rec for pure angst for days now! You're so rad.

And these recs seem great, guys!

[justsoqueer.livejournal.com]

Kt!! We angst whores know best, don't we? Lol
Thanks for the links, sweetie! <3

[bigdogz09.livejournal.com]

I wrote one in which the guys are broken up and then Brian finds out that Justin is missing. It's pretty angsty. It's called "A Light Shining Through The Darkness," and it's at Midnight Whispers.

Here's the link (I hope it works).

http://www.midnightwhispers.ca/viewstory.php?sid=1646&warning=3

[ktkatastr0phe.livejournal.com]

Oh! New stories! Can't wait to check it out.

[justsoqueer.livejournal.com]

Ohhh!! Thank you! I haven't read it yet. *Is excited*
I promise feedback! ;)

[bigdogz09.livejournal.com]

I should say that this is the typical kind of angtsy fic. It's got twists and turns and it very different from the 'they break-up and get back together' them.

It's feels weird to recommend my story. I keep thinking I should delete the suggesting entry.

[justsoqueer.livejournal.com]

Nooo! It's okay! And it's not as if you're shoving it down our throats or anything. Lol. You just leave the link there... ;)
Thanks!

[love4movies.livejournal.com]

The Sign by Kachelofen http://kachelofen.livejournal.com/tag/the%20sign

Stars Made of Paper by Rinmonsterer http://rinmonsterer.livejournal.com/51816.html

Valediction by q_dicted http://q-dicted.livejournal.com/tag/valediction

My Biggest Regret by dreamcatcher http://dreamcatcher.livejournal.com/3346.html

At Times, Indeed, Almost Ridiculous by windtossed http://windtossed.livejournal.com/24546.html

[justsoqueer.livejournal.com]

Oh, my! "The Sign" is one of my favourites. So incredibly painful to read! In a good way, of course.
Valediction I've read (and sobbed to), and also windtossed's fic. Bur the other two are new to me. YAY! Thank you so much!

[ntua.livejournal.com]

I second love4movies' rec of "Valediction" by q_dicted. It is, without a doubt, the best piece of fanfic I have ever encountered in this or any fandom. Warning, though - you'll be a sniveling, sobbing mess. I'm talking he U-G-L-Y cry where you don't want to be in the same room with another person.

A really close second for me is galeandrandy's "Tenebrosity" already recc'd above. It will break your heart over and over again with every chapter.

As for something new, kiera81487 just posted an update to my (not so) secret obsession: "Unexpectations".
http://kiera81487.livejournal.com/tag/unexpectations
Justin and Brian break up. Justin rebounds and has a baby with someone else. (Don't be squicked - all mpreg happenings are offscreen.) Justin realizes his mistake, tries to get Brian back, Brian says "No way!". Brian has hot!sex / kind-of!relationship with OMC. Justin is jealous. Angst and chaos ensue. Love it!

ETA - And my go-to fics when I need my angst tempered with a little HEA:

blissink's "One Love": http://blissink.livejournal.com/tag/one%20love
and
bdeviled's "Full Circle": http://www.livejournal.com/tools/memories.bml?user=bdeviled&keyword=Full+Circle&filter=all

[justsoqueer.livejournal.com]

Oh yeah. Valediction. I was a sobbing mess practically during the whole thing. No, that wasn't very pretty to watch! hehehe
And I think I've read "Full Circle", but I'm not sure...

I think the "Unexpectations" sounds just like my cup of tea. I think I'll like it. :)

I'm reading "Tenebrosity" right now. Man, that's angsty, all right!

Thank for answering! ;)

[justsoqueer.livejournal.com]

Well, it was "One Love" the one that I had already read. I was a virgin to Full Circle. And it killed me that it was abandoned! :((( But it's worth it. Like, soooo worth it!

[sfscarlet.livejournal.com]

I'll toot my own horn here. I wrote a fic called Pain Management- B/J and broken up- lots of angst- can find it on Midnight Whispers- it is reposted on Midnight Whispers- the original got eaten when the site was hacked.

http://midnightwhispers.ca/viewstory.php?sid=126

[justsoqueer.livejournal.com]

Oh, great!! Thank you!
And the site got hacked? That's a scary thought. I still feel like weeping everytime a link to a qaf fic takes me to that bondage page... :(((

[sfscarlet.livejournal.com]

that was a long time ago- it's been safe for a while

[love4movies.livejournal.com]

Just remembered this one. Brian turns 40.

Forty by Sandra Gia

http://web.archive.org/web/20041009195223/http://sandragia.brianplusjustin.com/f_01.php

[justsoqueer.livejournal.com]

Ohhhh! I love that one! Hmmm...it might be time for a re-read, in fact...
;)

[nightvision55.livejournal.com]

I'll add a couple of my own, both break-up fics and pretty angsty! Don't know if you've read them:

Bird On A Wire
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5558633/1/BIRD_ON_A_WIRE

and The Great Divide http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6364731/1/THE_GREAT_DIVIDE