B/J broken up...Justin can't stop thinking about Brian while w/another guy...

[elvenfixation.livejournal.com]

This is kind of a long shot, but I thought I'd ask...

The only part I remember about this story is that Brian and Justin are not together (could be season 5 or at some other point,) and Justin is trying to have sex with another guy (Brandon? in which case it would be season 5) but he can't stop thinking about Brian.

Anyway, afterwards (I don't remember if he and the other guy ended up having sex) Justin is still thinking about Brian and how no matter what happens he just can't him out of his head. He's thinking about their first night together when Brian told him "...I want you to remember this...so that no matter who you're with, I'll always be there." And Justin's annoyed that Brian is always there even when he is trying to move on. And there's a line where he thinks to himself, "The f-cker, he cursed me..."

Thanks for any help.


Edit: Found...I'm pretty sure. Link is in the comments. Thanks to massicot.

Comments

[bitbitbot.livejournal.com]

hi there- not exactly what you described, but in bdevild's A Love That Will Never Grow Old (http://www.livejournal.com/tools/memories.bml?user=bdeviled&keyword=A+Love+That+Will+Never+Grow+Old&filter=all) (Part 10), Justin is in new york with a new boyfriend, and thinks that phrase while they're having sex. they manage to have sex for a few months, regardless, so it's not exactly a "can't get it up; you've ruined me for other men" scenario.

quote:

Even with Alex’s lips around my dick I couldn’t keep Brian out of my head. (“No matter who you're ever with, I'll always be there.” The fucker cursed me.)

[elvenfixation.livejournal.com]

...you know, that might actually be it. I did read part of "A Love That Will Never Grow Old" a couple of years ago but I don't think I ever finished it.

I'll take a look. Thanks so much.

[kitty-84.livejournal.com]

Maybe this one???

"Looking Through You" by mickiebg

http://mickiebg.livejournal.com/33636.html

it's a S5 fic, Brandon is obsessed with Justin, and at the same time Brian and Justin try to solve their own issues. Amazing story, really angsty, but there is so much love between Brian and Justin. Absolutely beautiful

[elvenfixation.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure if that's the one, but it sounds good.

...though for some reason the link's not working for me; do you know if their journal is locked?

[kitty-84.livejournal.com]

Yeah sorry about that, i forgot to mention that it's locked...you have to be freinded to read it