Heart-breaking Fics

[autumn-screams.livejournal.com]

Hello Hello!

This may be the masochist in me, but I'm looking for totally heartbreaking but still B/J love in the end fics. I can't seem to get my fill on reading about them making it despite insurmountable  odds. 

Thank you so much in advance.    :D

 

ETA: a list of amazing fics in the comments. Thank you so much to those wonderful and amazing people who helped me out   :D

Comments

[sexy-pumpkin.livejournal.com]

Are you talking about lots of ANGST with other male characters, or post 513 when they miss each other so much, I have lots of those, but be warned I CRY easily, email me at sexypumpkin@gmail.com & I can send & find you some links,,later.

[autumn-screams.livejournal.com]

angst, missing each other, other men - all these or one of the 3, as long as totally cry-your-eyes out fic, I will read :D thank you so much.

[sexy-pumpkin.livejournal.com]

Have you read Miss Miko, 78 fics that tell the love story of B&J from start to finish, just read them ALL in order, I needed therapy at about fic #34, so good, heres the link,,if you get lost following them tell me Ok,,love Jxx

http://heelsoverhead.net/stories/stories.html

start at the Jambaylah fic, all S1 gapfillers, then skip S2 gapfillers & go straight to Season Two Fantasy, then 3 & 4 till the finale" see you in a month, thats how long they took me, I've never cried as much, but OMG the love is so beauitful, you'll never want them to end.

[autumn-screams.livejournal.com]

by the way, I sent you an email.

[hannasch.livejournal.com]

Would you mind sending me those links too? I know it's been some time ago, but if it would be possible I'd appreciate it. I am a sucker for angst and drama.
Thank yo

[sexy-pumpkin.livejournal.com]

Ill have to go & read the original entry, I have no idea what fics & what lol,,later Jx

BTW I ONLY read B&J happy & together, Ive read 2 sad fics & try to stay clear of them

[sexy-pumpkin.livejournal.com]

Have you ever read Miss Miko, if not Ill send you the link,,hugs jx

[sexy-pumpkin.livejournal.com]

http://heelsoverhead.net/stories/stories.html

This is the link to MIss Miko, OMG the pain & the angnst killed me, BUT the B&J love is so overwhelming, start with Jambaylah, read all the S1 gapfillers, then skip S2 gapfillers & go straight to Season Two Fantasy, the 3 & 4 etc, its in cannon up to S 2 Fantasy, then she takes you on an AU ride you'll never forget, 78 stories all togther, such an amazing achievment, they took me a month to read, I cried like a baby, if you need me Im here lol,,later Jx

Thank You

[hannasch.livejournal.com]

Nice of you to answer so promptly. I know those stories and after getting over the initial "shock" of Miss Miko's kind of raw emotionalism, I read them all. Took me a long time too. I did not cry, but it took some strength not to.
As you seem very well informed: What would you name as your ultimate BJ stories? For me there is no question: Plans - Subject to Change - Divergence - Brothers Keeper and Lola (very AU) - would be nice to hear from you. Thanks again

Re: Thank You

[sexy-pumpkin.livejournal.com]

OMG you've already read them, & you didn;t cry, Im very proud of you lol.

I love all the fics you've mentioned, how amazing I was only talking about Divergence tonight, what do you think? did he die, I can;t stand to think of it, I never read death fics, but there was no "death" warning & many people beleived he didn't die, it was very emotional for me.

I love Xies & Vamphiles fics as well, have read them all, never read Lola, whats it about? here are some of my favs, if you want links I can help you out, they ALL have happy endings, life sad enough

Framed by Plumsuede my fav post513 standalone

To Know the Difference by Burnitbackwards, post 414 OMG the love

Into My Arms by Rhiannonhero an AU after 414, my fav fic ever I think, for total love & romance.

Painting Lessons , post153 by Jans_Intentions, the love is so overwhelming, I adore ALL her fics, Innocence as well by Jan

Karma & Gene Pool by Mickiebg both post513 series, so amazing

I have many more, loved Vamps Visible & all of Triciaqafs porn lol, oh yes all of Myrna;s fics, Growing Up Kinney & If You Needed Me & Rizeabeaus & Gold & Silver shines by Severina2001 & all of Arlad's fics & my other fav author Luceononuro her fic called Tell Me Again is so beautiful, I cold go on & on lol, I read wayyyyyyyyy to much, but I love them both you see, I need them to keep going, after 513 I died, so there hope you like them, tell me if you need help finding them,,I have all the links,,later its 12.40am I have to get up in 5 hours :(,,later Jackie.xx

BTW if you go to my latest posts on LJ, theres pics & a link to fic written before 2007, wait till you see it, you can read forever more lol

[tawny-7.livejournal.com]

Have you ever read Queer Theories by Gaedhal??
It will make you want to destroy your monitor!!
Gaedhal's fiction (http://members.aol.com/gaelmcgear/fanfictionpage3.html)

This one is full of angst as well.
Broken Image (http://home.earthlink.net/~skj3/)

Enjoy!

[autumn-screams.livejournal.com]

I haven't finished Gaedhal's yet...it's soooo long but good. I'll remember to wrap my monitor in bubble wrap while reading it :D I haven't read Broken Image yet, though. Maybe I'll wrap my harddrive too, for extra safe measure.

Thanks sooo much.

[tawny-7.livejournal.com]

Ahhh...so you are reading Gaedhal's stuff!
Queer Theories??
She has so many good ones!
Have fun!

[autumn-screams.livejournal.com]

I'm not reading them all in one sitting. I think I'm not woman enough yet for that *chuckles* But I will try my very best. :D

[meljune2008.livejournal.com]

sorry for not having any links...I'm not exactly the queen of links here (I'm always the one asking for links, never providing them...=[)...but...

you should definitely read Queer Theories (you must have HUGE amounts of patience though for that story...)

although, I totally agree with tawny 7...I had to prevent myself from throwing the computer, including the monitor, across the room...It's VERY well written though, and I was addicted even though I was ready to set fire to my computer and scream at the top of my lungs...

that sounds so horrible, doesn't it? =]

xo
Mel

[autumn-screams.livejournal.com]

hello Mel,
I can't help being more and more curious about the fic after reading your comment but I can't help thinking also that it is the perfect fic for me :D
It does sound horrible but it also does sound beautiful (does that make me a freak or what?!). I can't wait to finish the whole story and go completely insane.

Here's to a new insane me!

Thank you thanks you. :D

[meljune2008.livejournal.com]

=]

that definitely doesn't make you a freak...It really is a beautiful fic and the way Brian is portrayed is so deep and revealing, and just depressing at some points! Definitely find time to read it though...but don't let it take over your life! I was hooked! And your decription fits it perfectly...you want heartbreak? you got it from, like, the 1st chapter...but in the end all is well...sorta...=]

but the horrible side? The character of Ron. I don't know if you know the storyline, but I was ready to murder that character the moment he stepped into the scene...I HATED that character (he's the one that made me wanna break my computer in half...lol.), but LOVED the storyline that came with him...if you're a hardcore B/J fan like me, you'll probably...er, most likely...won't like him.

did you actually start to read it? (you have to read it straight through, or nothing will make sense)

and your welcome (I went insane over it to...it's got sequels, so be prepared for even more drama...)

I'm talking WAY TOO MUCH right now...I'll shut up...for the time being...=]

xo
Mel

[autumn-screams.livejournal.com]

I've just finished copying it to Word and get this, IT TOOK 1,800+ pages!!! ohmy! it just boggles the mind. I took a peek every once in a while, and I've seen Ron's character but haven't really "known" him yet. So I'm actually looking forward to hating him (*biased*)
I'll take your advise and read it all the way, so goodbye sleep and food! It's a good thing that the holidays are coming up or else it will be goodbye work for me too :D
Thank you so much for "making" me finally read this. I was soo intimidated before by its sheer length and was staying away from it. Now its time to be a "man" about this and just dive into the drama that is B/J :D
I'm also talking a lot and will now shut up......and read!
*making a toast* To Brian and Justin and to all those who just can't help but love them.

:D

[meljune2008.livejournal.com]

I copied it too! :is still intimidated by the length, even though I've already read it:

I tried not to be biased toward him...for like the 1st few chapters, but I couldn't help but hate him...and pity him, too, but that's somehting else entirely...

aww...good luck with reading it!

:toasts back and takes a sip:

enjoy. =]

[such-a-steph.livejournal.com]

For me you can't go past wrenlet's Reaper Boy. It's everything you have asked for and then some.
It starts here, then follow the arrows through.
http://nanowrenlet.livejournal.com/430.html

[autumn-screams.livejournal.com]

ohmy! I totally forgot about that beautiful fic. Thank you stephmck for the reminder :D

[artemisblack666.livejournal.com]

Cross-Reference by laciudad is a really great one.

http://www.livejournal.com/tools/memories.bml?user=laciudad&keyword=qaf&filter=all

[autumn-screams.livejournal.com]

I've read this and you're right, this IS really beautiful.
thank you for this :D

[pendulumchanges.livejournal.com]

Do you want death!fics that make you cry your eyes out?

[autumn-screams.livejournal.com]

I couldn't decide on an answer immediately after reading your question :D I think death!fics will be ok. I'll just brace myself really really hard.
thank you much :D

[pendulumchanges.livejournal.com]

There are very few death!fics out there so I'm always on the lookout for good ones. These are the best ones I've found so far. They're extremely well written and they all made me cry (which pretty much defines a good death!fic for me).

My LJ memories (http://www.livejournal.com/tools/memories.bml?user=pendulumchanges&keyword=death%21fic&filter=all) include links to 6 death!fics...

"This Time Out" by suzvoy - short, but fantastic
"Sound of Him" by herewego15 - very short, but I absolutely love this one
"Boys of Melody" by sweetestdrain - longer, includes some weird Ethan stuff, but still very good
"The Third Thing Brian Never Did" by ragingpixie - fairly short, very sad
"Haunted" by equuscentric - a unique death!fic, it made me sob the first time I read it
"Reaper Boy" in the journal nanonwrenlet (already recced above) - longer, post-122 AU crossover with the show Dead Like Me... I'd never seen the show before and I still loved this story.

My IJ memories (http://www.insanejournal.com/tools/memories.bml?user=pendulumchanges&keyword=death%21fic&filter=all) include links to 3 more death!fics...

"Every Fucking Morning" by ladybugkay - very short, one of my favorite death!fics
"When The Time Comes" by not_yet_defined - a fantastic fic
And a death!drabble that also made me cry by specialj67

And two other fics that aren't on either journal...

Seven Stages of Brian and Gus (http://www.randalls-fiction.com/fiction/seven.php) by Randall - longer and very moving
Better Now (http://www.suzvoy.com/qaf/betternow.html) by Suzvoy - post-AU, the first death!fic I ever read and it's still one of my favorites

[autumn-screams.livejournal.com]

ohmy! thank you so much for these fics. I've read some of them before but never really got a chance to save them and now I can :D
I can't wait to cry my eyes out. Thank you so much and happy holidays!