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[fopperies.livejournal.com]

Uh, greetings. Apparently I am somewhat of an asshat, and I've gotten it in my head (heart?) that 510 AU's where Justin dies are the coolest thing since sliced bread. I deeply desire wishing-for-what-could-have-been!Brian.

Help a sister fellow out? :D

ETA: Links in comments to the death. Of course, now I've realized I'm one of those weepy people, so living in a hole is starting to sound nice.

Comments

[passing-through.livejournal.com]

Ouch! My heart hurts from reading your request.

[fopperies.livejournal.com]

I've started working out, you see. The endorphins are doing strange things. For instance, I'm actually working out.

Also, the sad, it calls to me.

[passing-through.livejournal.com]

Congratulations on working out :)

Alas, the sad often calls me too. I usually don't answer it though. I don't know of any post-510 Justin dies fics. Of course I don't really read death!fics on a regular basis.

I'd say good luck but Justin death!fics make my heart hurt :(

[westleyo.livejournal.com]

Me too. These type of posts will one day make me leave this group. Reading that someone gets off on Justin dying is not how I want to start my day.

[fopperies.livejournal.com]

Bah hah. I don't actually get off on Justin dying. Note, I didn't put out a search for necrophilia fics. I am, though, interested in different people's interpretations of Brian grieving. Because it would have been devastating, don't you think, if Justin had died. All the what ifs. I don't think it's happy, and I don't want something happy, but I do think Brian's reaction to an unexpected death would be interesting to see. I'm not celebrating the idea of a character I really love (though I think he is indecisive as all hell, but that's life) dying, I just think it would be an interesting take.

Seriously, I'm not asking for death porn. Or suicide fic. I probably didn't phrase my search in a fitting manner, but I'm just not inclined to be serious.

[westleyo.livejournal.com]

A lot of us are serious about Brian and Justin. Your post was enough to make me quit the group. People who are interested reading about Justin's death are not worth associating with.

[hangebokhan.livejournal.com]

And here I thought this was a group dedicated to acceptance of alternative and open ways of thinking. I guess this fandom is as closed minded as the rest.

[fopperies.livejournal.com]

Cowlip would weep at the close mindedness of their fans.

Thanks for not digging at me. xD

[hangebokhan.livejournal.com]

No problem, I like a good death!fic here and there, the NaNo one made me feel all tingly and sad like. I realllly like death fics when one dies and the last one is a line where the other follows, it is just so perfect.

Gotta ask, what is the situation around your icon?

[fopperies.livejournal.com]

Oh, you are so after my own heart.

When Ted gets the announcement for B/J's wedding. 512, I think?

[hangebokhan.livejournal.com]

OOOOOOOOH! And, i don't try to be, I just am ^^

[fopperies.livejournal.com]

I would apologize, but, 5. We do not discriminate against fan works based on author talent, porn content, completeness, popularity . . . or even ship. ;-) All searches welcome.

I do feel bad about pushing you to quit, though. It's not as if we're really associating. I sincerely doubt I'll ever post again, much less make bi-weekly hunts for fics that include HIV, Suicide, Homicide, Poison...patricide. (What? Craig is an ass)

And, what I meant by not being serious, was that I don't take life seriously. I'm very mellow, and I tend to pick fun at everything short of nuclear explosions. I do really love QAF, though, and I hope you don't leave. I'm really not worth it.

[ayslin.livejournal.com]

...Are you serious? Seriously serious? (and not about B/J, ha, but this post...) I don't see what the problem is. I doubt anyone here is getting off on Justin dying. Death is a very big and very emotional part of life (duh) - it's cathartic and a welcome *emotional* release, at times, to experience it through characters that we love. And sometimes a good deathfic is just what I need - it nearly kills me to see the character go...but that's kind of the point.

If *she* weren't "serious" about Brian and Justin, I doubt Justin deathfics would hold any interest. You cry over someone you care about.

And sometimes you need a good cry.

PS - bookgirl, I think you've handled this thread amazingly. Sorry, my pockets are empty in the way of deathfics, but if I ever find any worth phoning home about, I'll let you know.

[fopperies.livejournal.com]

(Under the assumption that I'm bookgirl :D)

I handled it amazingly? If I was half as eloquent as you, perhaps I wouldn't have come off as such huge of an ass.

Seriously (seriously), thank you for the support. And, uh, everything you said, in defense to my post. ;)

[ayslin.livejournal.com]

Erm, yes, you would be bookgirl. Apparently my page scrolling ability leaves something to be desired. :P

I don't think you came off as an ass - at least not to people who didn't have their heads stuck up their own to begin with. You gave much more respectful answers to comments than I would have, that's for sure. Death might not be everyone's cuppa, but such is life. I mean, I don't like feet. That doesn't make me a good or bad person. It makes me a person who doesn't like feet.

[(Anonymous)]

You are one sick puppy...

[fopperies.livejournal.com]

It's not as bad as the Prom!Death kick I was on a few weeks ago. D:

Especially ones where Justin is a ghost. It cannot be explained.

[pendulumchanges.livejournal.com]

You got me on a death!fic kick so now I'm looking for more... can you rec me some good prom!death fics?

[flashfly.livejournal.com]

Not sure the time period on these, but they're all well-written Justin death fics. Enjoy!

Apollo's End (http://rhihero-fic.livejournal.com/25232.html)
by rhiannonhero

Blackbird (http://community.livejournal.com/scrooged/12243.html) by sydneyalexis

Haunted (http://qaf-darefic.livejournal.com/2303.html) by equusentric

[fopperies.livejournal.com]

My heart. It beats, only for you. :D

< 3!!

[pendulumchanges.livejournal.com]

omg, "Haunted" was incredible! Thank you so much for responding to the death!fic request.

[flashfly.livejournal.com]

You're welcome! If you look in my memories - Haunted is listed all by itself as 'my favorite death fic ever' or some such nonsense. :) But it is!

[pendulumchanges.livejournal.com]

I have an unhealthy obsession with death!fics. There just aren't enough out there and most people avoid them like the plague so they're hard to find. These aren't 510 death!fics, but they're other death!fics that have made me cry. Enjoy! Cry your heart out!

"Boys of Melody" by sweetestdrain (http://sweetestdrain.livejournal.com/78207.html)
"Reaper Boy" by nanowrenlet (http://nanowrenlet.livejournal.com/?skip=40) (written for NaNoWriMo 2003, it's a crossover with the show Dead Like Me, but I'd never even heard of the show and I still loved this fic)
"Every F-ing Morning" by ladybugkay (on IJ) (http://ladybugkay.insanejournal.com/18296.html) (a short piece and one of my favorites)
"Senses" by specialj67 (on IJ) (http://asylums.insanejournal.com/qaf_drabbles/202826.html) (very short)
"Better Now" by suzvoy (http://www.suzvoy.com/qaf/betternow.html)

[fopperies.livejournal.com]

Waaahhh! You're amazing. I'm going to bubble over with grief, and think of you. :D

I am alive with the joy. [/pun]

[pendulumchanges.livejournal.com]

I have to add this one even though it's not a death!fic (it gets close a couple times, but it's NOT actually a death!fic) in case you haven't read it yet. It is like the mother of all hurt/comfort fics. It's pretty long, but sooooooooo worth it. It's split into 4 parts narrated first by Ethan, then by Michael, then by Brian, then finally by Justin. Surprisingly, I almost like the first two parts best... but really the whole thing is just so fucking good you have to read it.

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I have to add this one even though it's not a death!fic (it gets close a couple times, but it's NOT actually a death!fic) in case you haven't read it yet. It is like the mother of all hurt/comfort fics. It's pretty long, but sooooooooo worth it. It's split into 4 parts narrated first by Ethan, then by Michael, then by Brian, then finally by Justin. Surprisingly, I almost like the first two parts best... but really the whole thing is just so fucking good you have to read it.

<a href="http://www.queerasfolk.wired-hub.net/iynm_01.html>"If You Needed Me" by <user site="livejournal.com" user="myrna1_2_3"></a>

[pendulumchanges.livejournal.com]

oopsies... now it's a real link
"If You Needed Me" by myrna1_2_3 (http://www.queerasfolk.wired-hub.net/iynm_01.html)

[pendulumchanges.livejournal.com]

fuckin a

"If You Needed Me" by myrna1_2_3 (http://www.queerasfolk.wired-hub.net/iynm_01.html)

[fopperies.livejournal.com]

Oh thank god. The cumulative misery and angst was sort of killing me. I'm more emotional than I thought.

Not!Death-fic means happy ending, right? Not...Justin in a home with severe brain damage, yes?

[pendulumchanges.livejournal.com]

I keep those stories in my memories under the keyword "makes me cry" and I pull them out when I need to feel the pain.

Yes, NOTdeath!fic does have a happy ending... but have you been reading "Painting Lessons" by jans_intentions? It's all about Brian having severe brain damage. It's still a WIP, but it's another amazing hurt/comfort fic. I usually avoid WIPs, but that one has sucked me in.

[fopperies.livejournal.com]

Hee. The cry me a river fics were amazing. I'm all sorts of in love with 'Boys of Melody'. Brian/Ethan squicked me so hard in all the right places I cried more.

Oh, god yes. I'd only seen it recced 8 or 9 times before I screwed my original trepidation over reading a WIP and grabbed the train. It exceeded my expectations, despite all the good word. My strange little heart thumped away at the idea of a fic with severe brain damage that was so about 'the love'.

It sucked me in like a hoover. Jans!Fic is amazing. If I didn't have issues with Justin!Hooker fic I'd be all over Noir, too.

[pendulumchanges.livejournal.com]

My strange little heart thumped away at the idea of a fic with severe brain damage that was so about 'the love'. It sucked me in like a hoover. ..... I agree 100%

I haven't tried "Noir" either, but after "Painting Lessons" and "Apple" are done I might give it a chance. If it's like the rest of her stuff it's probably going to be good. Her fics are all sort of out there, but they are seriously so full of teh love it's incredible. And despite the completely random circumstances/places/setting/backstories she's still able to keep Brian and Justin in character somehow.

[fopperies.livejournal.com]

Yesyesyes. She can just pick them up and stick them back down anywhere, and it just tickles my fancy.

Apple is great because, hello, hot slave action. And the way Brian is completely stripped of any control he might have had, and Justin is bit by bit giving it back to him. Which is great, because it's almost dead opposite to what happens on the show, but they're still exactly the same people. Just with different experiences.

After Noir finishes I think I'm going to have a Jans!Fic party and sit and read everything she's written in one go. It will be a marathon of great.

[zaipixie.livejournal.com]

Oh! I love Jans stuff!

You really should read Noir though. Justin isn't really a hustler in it... it's hard to explain really. You just have to trust me.

Jan is amazing! She builds worlds I can't get enough of her stuff. And she's at her absolute best in Noir in my opinion! Go Read!

[fopperies.livejournal.com]

Seriously? Don't tease a girl, I'm all a light with the possibility of another Jans!fic.

Practically asking for spoilers here, but, not hustler? Or only not a hustler in the sense that he doesn't dance on weekdays. (I'm refraining from the crude)

She is an amazing pupper master, both with her readers and the golden couple. I'm all but salivating at the new Blue Lagoon fic. Something I never thought I would say.

[zaipixie.livejournal.com]

Oh she's truly amazing! The way she manages to flesh out the stories with a mythology of its own and every little aspect of the world she writes about so you'll feel like you're standing in the middle of it. Her brain is a most exciting place to visit.

Well.... Justin is sort of...well... eh... I CAN'T REALLY EXPLAIN without giving out spoilers! Let's just say that in the world of Noir there are more like him that originally was meant to please....
And Noir!Brian is more battered and bruised with more scar tissue and walls up than ever....

Justin's strong and he's brave and he's... Oh for the love of Liberty Avenue! Just go read will ya! *LOL*

[fopperies.livejournal.com]

It's sort of necessary now considering that very vague and cryptic response. :D Is he, like, a pleasure slave? Spoil me like yesterday's milk, please.

I was going to read it a month ago, I think, but I started and Justin was in a silk robe?... I am sort of a connoisseur of bad fic (not that Jan!fic is anything of the sort), so I have high tolerance for just about anything, but my three squicks are silk robes, long hair, and hustlers. Oddly, they were all in QAF at some point.

Wah. I haven't even begun to read Noir and I'm mesmerized.