AU, post-513 fic where B is no longer successful (addict, loses Kinnetic), J is off living the life

[ntua.livejournal.com]

Please help! Looking for a recent-ish fic where the author purposely writes against post-513 fandom trope featuring pathetic!Brian and independent!Justin and a rather ambiguous possible HEA...

I thought it was written by Frayach/queerasfray, but after combing through her journal and AO3 profile, alas it was not! FOUND by kellankyle! It is by Fray, but she has removed it from her journal :-(

Details:
1. After Justin leaves for New York, Brian never recovers. He becomes a functioning drug addict and eventually loses Kinnetic when Ted convinces him to take it public and they get taken over by a competitor.

2. Justin doesn't stay in touch and goes on to have several relationships and success as an artist in the States and Europe.

3. At one point, Justin comes back to the Pitts for a visit and sees Brian through the diner window and realizes that Brian has become ordinary/pathetic and that he no longer loves him. He later writes Brian and tells him to get his life together.

4. Life goes on and Brian and Justin eventually experience reversals of fortune. Brian moves on and begins a second career as a developer, while Justin's career kind of plateaus and he realizes that he is lonely and returns to the Pitts.

5. Brian and Justin meet again and sort of get back together, with one caveat: Brian won't have full intercourse with Justin because he no longer trusts Justin not to hurt him and Brian has learned to protect himself.

6. After several years together, Brian eventually moves to Philadelphia and tells Justin that he doesn't want Justin to come with him. Brian wants to keep their long-distance relationship going, but wants to devote his time to developing his career. Justin realizes that their relationship has come full circle and he has to love Brian enough to let him go the same way Brian did for him.

To be honest, I didn't really love this story the first time I read it (which is probably why I didn't think to bookmark it, grrr!), but it has really stayed with me and after some time away, I would like to read it again - so any help would be greatly appreciated.

Comments

[kellankyle.livejournal.com]

It is Frayach…but she pulled it. I have it, but need to ask her permission before I share it.

[ntua.livejournal.com]

I would really appreciate it if you would... Thanks!

[wjsc99.livejournal.com]

Yikes -- just reading that description made me sad. :-(

Now, I need an emotional boost. Think I'll spend the morning with Rizabeau's 'That Happy Feeling'! ;-)

[ntua.livejournal.com]

That was my first reaction, too - hence, the non-bookmarking... But, like I said, the story has really stayed with me.

Don't get me wrong, I'm a sucker for all the contrived angst and the guaranteed HEA's in Rizabeau's work, but, I really appreciate writing with some "meat" to it, something that provokes a visceral reaction and makes me think.

To make up for making you sad, however, may I suggest moseying over to AO3 and reading the "In Quest of Something" series by ebbj9891? A deliciously long, well-crafted and intricate post-513 world guaranteed to put a smile on your face!

http://archiveofourown.org/series/133530

[wjsc99.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the rec; that's a new one to me! :-)

[kellankyle.livejournal.com]

Apparently a lot of people weren't happy. She added an extra chapter which left it less ambiguous. I was afraid to read it, but she promised me that I wouldn't hate her after. Plus...it's so well written that it's worth all of the pain. Lol.

I'll text her now. :)

[ntua.livejournal.com]

Plus...it's so well written that it's worth all of the pain. Lol.

I totally and wholeheartedly agree! Thanks again!

[kellankyle.livejournal.com]

She said sure! I have both EPUB and MOBI files. Send a PM with your email address and I will send you the file.

~ Deborah :)

[ntua.livejournal.com]

Hi! I sent you a couple of PMs with my email address. The EPUB would be great, if it's not too much trouble...

Thanks again!

Serena

[kellankyle.livejournal.com]

Sent…for some reason your message went to my "suspicious mail" folder. Quite suspicious…indeed! :)

P.S. In case my email ends up in spam, it begins with admat97 :D

[rockybonnie.livejournal.com]

Could I have the story also, sounds interesting