Justin is a drug addict/ Justin has a son and lives in NYC

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Hey guys.

Looked in the tags and memories but can't find these specific fics!
-First story: Justin is a drug addict (heroin, i think) and leaves Brian so he can cope with it. Im pretty sure its post-513 and that he begs Brian for money at one point. If it helps i think it was on someones livejournal.
-Second story: Brian and Justin bump into one another in New York. Its post-513 and Brian has Gus with him. Justin has a son named Jake. At one point in the story, Justin finds it 'hysterically adorable' that Jake is copying Gus. Its a one shot and was on the moonshadow site but cant find it .

Please help. Thank you. xxx
 
EDIT: This first story might be 'I Feel alive' by innerjustin. Thank you to livingbeauty91. If anyone can put it up for download, it will be much appreciated.
Second story is 'Forward From Where We've Been' by Cindy. Thank you cowboystracker and lexia4. Link in comments. xxx