Rape!fic

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OK, taking a break from a vicious cycle of writing, then glaring at my fic muses, to read some fic. Unfortunately, the title of this fic that I really, really want to read has gone on vacation, presumably to Ibiza because I'm not getting any postcards or phone calls.

So, does anybody have the title (and link, but I can probably find it once I have the title) of that wonderfully angsty fic where Brian is raped by this serial rapist whose MO is using implements rather than his dick? The fic is quite long, centered around how Justin and Brian deal with the trauma.

Any help at all will be appreciated.

ETA: Found! It's Negation by jane2005, which I really should have remembered since I love Jane!fic like Justin likes margaritas. Many thanks to _venus_ and potentiial.