Looking for the title of a major character death fic ~ FOUND!!!

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I read a story where Ben and Justin have died and Brian and Michael get married. Brian never got over Justin, as his death was sudden. I don't remember if it was an accident, but Brian never fully recovered from it. Ben finally succommed to his illness, so Michael was prepared. Basically, they were companions. He accepted whatever love he got from Brian, knowing he was never going to get his heart.

Does anyone remember the title and author?

Thanks! 

Found by blklizard link in comments. :D