B/J Break Up fic

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I'm looking for a horribly depressing, heartbreaking fic that I read a while ago and for some reason have an urge to inflict upon myself again.  I'm pretty sure it was a Brian POV taking place post-series.  Brian and Justin weren't together anymore and you find out at the end that the reason why was because Justin had just fallen out of love with him.  I believe Brian mused over the fact that he had always known that was going to happen and that was why he had fought so hard against falling for Justin.  It did not have a happy ending.  Unfortunately I don't remember much more- probably I blocked it out due to the trauma it caused.  DDD: