looking for a specific Justin!Cancer fic

[colourlesshero.livejournal.com]

I'm looking for a S4 fic where Justin gets cancer instead of Brian.
In this fic, Brian finds the lump on Justin's balls during sex, and after Justin is diagnosed he tells Brian it's cancer at Kinnetic.
The last scene of the fic i'm looking for has Brian and Justin laying in a field after Justin gets the all-clear.

I've checked the cancer fic tags and it wasn't linked anywhere there (unless i'm going mad!!).
Thanks for your help!

Comments

[sjmpets.livejournal.com]

i think you're looking for "white and the color within" by sapphire http://www.midnightwhispers.ca/viewstory.php?sid=399&warning=3.

also don't forget it's sequel "abide with me" http://www.midnightwhispers.ca/viewstory.php?sid=324

and then there's "alright" http://www.midnightwhispers.ca/viewstory.php?sid=183

[colourlesshero.livejournal.com]

Thanks for your help! The actual fic i was looking for is below, but i'm going to read these too :)